thank you two of you..

everything is started with the first night of camp...
hmm i should tell who are THEY first..
first is kak hanisah..i call her kak nisa.
hmm i don`t know why i like her so much.the first night when my leg was paining like hell after running down from the khemah to dewan.then......she accompany me to hospital.actually i request her to go with me because i don`t know why that time i was like a small kid who need someone and a girl to be with.
so she was with me all the way to hospital. by the time the person say want to take my blood,again i loose my protect wall.i become a kid who doesn`t want to take blood and scare of pain.i hug my leg and tell to amaran bro and ekhmal bro that.i want kak nisa!,again she come in..she comfort me and let me to take blood without scare.
finally i take my blood successfully.(seriously kak nisa you are good in pujuk people:))
another thing is when ehmm......ehmm.....abg fahmi(who i close to)he say want to leave me and teacher in hospital but kak nisa ,abg ekhmal and abg amaran doesn`t want to leave us...so they stay and bring me back..
and last thing...
when i heard something about abg amaran ,i faster go to kak nisa pull her shirt and ask about abg amaran.she say'don`t cry if you cry lagi i will cry....'i know because she and abg amaran is really really close......
ok let me go to the next person...
he is abg amaran....
well don`t ask me why is him.but for me is him...
we are not really close...but i was touch because he and abg ekhmal doesn`t want to leave us at hospital..i don`t care wherether it is because i am their peserta or what...for from me...
i feel happy because they doesn`t leave us like that.
(for abg ekhmal...next time i will write bout it after i get contact with him)
well...today he msg and ask me'fishie are you ok?kak nisa told that you are not feeling well...'
that moment i just woke up from a very unstable sleep.......i sleep with a every bad mood..so when i wake up once again my protective wall in my heart is break down again.....without thinking anything...i just write to him..body dah ok tapi...hati tak ok...
so next is something secret.....
hmm...maybe for them this is something normal..but at least for me...first time i found that a person make me feel relax when i be with her...
hmm btw this camp let me found something that i never realize...
and let me do a decision...but i still don`t know how to tell him....