day with cold....

cold..
today is hot...but why is cold?
yes today the weather is hot....and i m cold...
cold to who?
erm...after u read this then u will know bout it...
today is a normal thursday but...jz...got some sambutan so i bring my phone to school...
and after school i went to library and chating with lower six...
someone surprise me...
abang saiful..
he sudenly appear...
and after tat i move to other table..and i keep asking ques...
in the end i decided to sit with him..and tinggal izati..sorry~
but something happen to my mind...sudenly...
when i was talking to goh and he stop his work...
and after tat suddenly...
something flow into my mind!
"i will step backward","senior and junior""i jz dun like to be disturb when i am study""if i m angry i will not talk to everyone""bcoz tat time u dunno so next time u know"...
sudenly these thing flow into my mind..
without any reason...
and i stop talking and i bcome cold and cold and cold...
i try to...b serious..but is hard...at least in the end i m cold and say bye to him..
only him...
but i dun wana to be serious with him... is suffer...but i cant...
he is my senior!and i m his junior!
i should respect him...respect him...so tat why i call him abang..
since i call him abang i cant jz rude to him...
i have to respect to him....
respect...
respect...and not to disturb his study....
NOT TO GANGGU HIM!!!!!!!!!
I KEEP telling this to myself and say..
he is ur senior..senior
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
respect!
unless u want him to hate u!
so i have to respect him as my senior!
he is diff with nad,rachel,wengying,wei hann...
he is my senior..and he is prs...
and respect is needed to him....
respect him...
not only him
including abang faizal,abang najad,abang ihsan,kak julie,kak wani,kak aisyah,kak mai,kak fiqah,abang a cik,abang nazri...
all of them i have to respect them and not playing with them..
they are my senior...a senior...
but i dunno can i treat them like a frenz?
i dunno but i know i should not treat them like how i treat goh,rachel,nad,mush!
i know it!
so be alway cold...