days...

everything about sport in ended...(previous post)
and now finally i can stay with goh again after school...
and i thought i can get my freedom back but i can`t actually,because there still have pss i have to join...wonder when will be the interview..
except pss there also my class...
i as a ketua keceriaan i have to do the carta organisasi as soon as possible,and the background i am thinking how to solve it.
i am thinking to buy a fabrik but nina say just buy paper and stapler it.
hmm is ok for me but i think is easier to just buy one more fabrik....
mah~let them to decided i just do..
i feel want to make it nice but as what mushroom told me what her experience i not really feel want to make it so beautiful already.
now a day i feel alone in school...recess time of course i won`t go with kartiga i have my own reason for not going with them.after school library as what i did on last year...but something is kinda different,goh is alway hang out with her friend lately and abang saiful is not there...
maybe nothing had changed just thing go back to last time...
go back to last time before i meet goh,saifullah..and everyone..
just i sitting there sometime people feel bore then come and talk to me,
just i sitting there sometime they have problem they come and ask me,
just i sitting there sometime they saw me sitting alone come and talk to me for awhile
and then all of them go back to their place again....
when i think back to last time...inside the library alone ,go library alone...
i know why because my friend they feel library is boring and sleepy...
they go library mostly is talking...
i don`t mind to talk i guess i have the same opinion with saiful now..
want to talk can but we have to study at the same time tooo
want to play can but we study first...
yeah i miss the time when saiful is here with us...
we talk,play and have fun after we study after4 pm...
and there will be 30 min for us to play....
i really miss last year..
this year many thing is different..once i remember that this year another batch of friend is going graduate i feel sad even thought it still long...
i want to shout i don`t want you guy to leave me!
MUSHROOM!NADWA! RACHEL!the school without them is way to too quite..
is just like too bore.
no one to bully,no one too tease,no one to hug no one to tickle no one to cry when mushroom leave the school

there is no one with vanilla smell and taking care about me like my big sister,and when i go to staff room i can`t see her face and can`t hug her.....when nadwa leave the school

there is no one being crazy,no one keep talking about hot guy,no one shouting like hell,no one making us to laugh and one more....no one taking pervect when rachel leave the school and last one no one will tell me about many thing about romance...

and one final thing...this thing totally change this year...
when i walk into 5w1 i can`t see their face anymore and i can`t go in to the classroom as my wish anymore........

oh my god!i miss them soo much...even thought i still can have contact with them but i really miss them...once i meet mushroom i feel don`t want to leave her...
but why only friday she can have lunch with me?friday i alway will have PBSM!!it make me can`t go have lunch with her!
i really miss you girl...
THIS WORD IS ONLY FOR RACHEL..
RACHEL I AM HAPPY TO HEARD THAT YOU MIGHT JOIN TO THIS SCHOOL AGAIN NEXT YEAR...
BUT I KNOW IT IS BETTER FOR YOU TO SETAPAK HIGH....
I WISH YOU CAN GET SETAPAK HIGH FOR YOUR FORM 6 EVEN THOUGHT I WANTED YOU TO BE WITH ME BUT FOR YOUR FUTURE I HOPE YOU WILL GET TO JOIN SETAPAK HIGH(AND BE WITH YOUR HANDSOME GUY....I HOPE NEXT TIME I SEE YOU,I CAN HEARD THE NEWS ABOUT YOU GET A HANDSOME BOYFRIEND)